I feel terrible for ranting about my feelings of depression when I see the people all around the world who have basically nothing and here I am with everything and still complaining. Ya Allah forgive me.
I have a good life for the most part. Everything I could ask for. Alhamdulillah. Parents are supportive, my husband is extremely understanding I have a select few very good friends who would drop what their doing to be there for me. But I feel like something is missing. Like I’m in a room full of people and yet I’m alone. I feel empty inside. No energy. It takes so much for me to get out of bed in the morning. For 10 years I’ve put a fake smile on and became very good at pretending everything is okay. Well it’s not. It’s not okay. I’m not okay. I’m at a low and I don’t know how to handle it. I make dua to Allah (swt) for just the slightest bit of happiness. But I still feel hopeless. Medicine doesn’t seem to help anymore. I don’t know where to turn. I just can’t keep going like this. I’m trying so hard to hold on to my deen have patience but it’s slowly slipping away. Ya Allah please help me. Ya Allah please.
So often it hurts us that we are not able to focus in our prayers. Remember, the more you focus on Allah outside your salah, the easier it will be to focus on Him inside your salah. What occupies you in salah, is what occupies you outside of salah. Try to fill your mind and heart with Allah as much as you can throughout your day. Talk to Him, make duaa to Him constantly. This will build your personal relationship with Him. Then, going to salah will be like coming home to an old friend.
"Prayin hard for better days, promise to hold on"
It always get worse before it gets better right?
Where to find happiness.
Honestly I’ve searched online and I can’t seem to find any good resources. I don’t want to give you the wrong information. Please forgive me. I was taught how to pray in person. And was always told there isn’t exactly a wrong way as long as your intentions are pure. Allah knows best. Inshallah May everyone’s prayers be accepted. My advice would be to go to your local masjid and have a sister teach you in person. I’m sorry I couldn’t be much of help.
Any one know a good website to help this anon. Inshallah.
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