I am feeling a little better. Everyday is a struggle though. But I’m learning to manage. Alhamdulillah.

"Truly in the heart there is a sadness that cannot be removed except with the happiness of knowing Allah."

- Ibn Al-Qayyim Al-Jawziyya  (via bornbetweentwosigns)

(Source: umm-abideen12)

Today isn’t as good as the past few days have been. Dad got surgery he’s doing fine and in recovery now. Alhamdulillah. But my anxiety level is sky high. I can’t control it. When I’m at the treatment center I’m okay. But as soon as I walk out into the real world everything collapses like I ton of bricks. I’m emotionally and physically exhausted. I don’t know much anymore. I’m lost. Inshallah I won’t give up though. Please keep me in your Duas. I hate begging for help or asking for help. But I could use it. Love you all.

Assalam alaikum guys. Sorry I haven’t updated in awhile. I’m getting help with my depression/bipolar. I’m enrolled into a outpatient program and on new medication to help me manage it. It’s helping slowly but surely. Inshallah I’ll be better soon. Keep me in your Duas. Love you all.

There was a non muslim nurse at the hospital today giving mom dawah.

Ya Allah I have no where to turn but you. This is a test. I don’t know when it will end or why it even started. But please I don’t know how much more I can take.

I feel like Allah is punishing me for some reason. It won’t go away.

As the pain gets worse the scars get deeper.

I feel like I can’t talk to anyone.

:( I really just want this feeling to go away.